The life of a stick figure

If anyone reads this will you please pray for me. I am really struggling right now with a lot of doubts and just feeling down. Like I said in my last post, anxiety is such an easy emotion for me and there is definitely a lot going on right now to leave me feeling anxious. Sometimes I feel like there is so much I should be doing and yet, I have no desire to do it. However, when I do actually do the things that I need to do, I feel like I am doing it for my own sake than for the Lord.
God has been teaching me so much about trust lately. I thought that the main lesson was about trusting Him, but I've been beginning to see how much of these lessons are about trusting people, especially those that are in authority over me. It is so easy for my pride and arrogance to rise up. Sometimes I feel like I know what is best and that other people are stupid for not agreeing. That is dumb.
I do need to trust Him. My financial situation continues to be a burden. I feel like I am doing well and than I get hit with some huge expense like new tires or a new phone or whatever. I got this stupid bill from the army the other day and I don't even know what it's for. I can't get a hold of anyone who knows what it is about and if I don't start paying on it by the 12th, they will send it to a debt collection agency. If I didn't dislike the military already, I am definitely losing any sort of affection very quickly. My patriotic feelings died out long ago and this is definitely putting the nail in the coffin.
I hope that I have not depressed anyone. I know that the Lord is working and that I can trust Him. Sometimes it is so hard to see past my circumstances and narrow view on life. He is working in and through me. I am reminded of that constantly but it is such an easy lesson to forget. Thank you for reading this and please pray.